"LOOK MOM....I have eyes in the back of my head!"

hmmm....
I wonder where he's heard THAT before?

Well, I was hoping to fill you in on what's been on my mind for the past couple weeks...
but alas...
I'm no where near knowing what I thought I'd know at this point.

Here is what I can say.
My husband's plant is closing.
In other words, in 60 days, he doesn't have a job here.
Yeah, pretty big stuff going on, huh?

Today was suppose to be THE day...
the day we'd know where we were moving,
when we were moving,
how we were moving...
if we were moving...

He's had meetings all day....
We have some things figured out,
and some new things to figure out....
We'll get it worked out.
Even if it means a few more months of uncertainty.

I keep telling Coley it's an "adventure"....
to which my son, who wants to stay right here replies..."well, this adventure SUCKS!"
Yeah, some adventures sort of do suck...
but there is always something good to look forward to.

It's like the movie Parenthood....
when the Grandma says "You know, when I was nineteen, Grandpa took me on a roller coaster."
The son says "Oh?"
Grandma "Up, down, up, down. Oh, what a ride!"
Son "What a great story."
Grandma "I always wanted to go again. You know, it was just so interesting to me that a ride could make me so frightened, so scared, so sick, so excited, and so thrilled all together!
Some didn't like it. They went on the merry-go-round.
That just goes around.
Nothing.
I like the roller coaster. You get more out of it."

I love that movie. xe

21

I can't say any better what Gabby wrote...
raise your glasses today....and say a little toast for Al if you would....

Today is October 14, 2006.
It would've been Alex's 21 birthday.
21.
Wow.
I remember feeling like life was just beginning at 21.
How much was left to do, left to find, left to become.
And it hurts so much to know that she won't ever know those feelings.
Her life stopped
At 20.
20. When there should be so much left ahead.

Today we would've celebrated.
She would've gone shopping
(her favorite thing)
And eaten a ridiculously fabulous dessert somewhere.
Today we should have done those things.
And we can't.
Her life was more fleeting than I ever would've guessed.
And because of that... we are never going to give up the fight.
We love you, Alex.

ee cummings, i carry your heart with me:

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

what we've been up to.....

2 so far...

and I'm head over heels in love....
go here...
check it...
sigh...
and the banner....
man...serious love.

Say what?

Sooo, that's the birthday boy....from last weekend.
I seriously can NOT believe he's 12.
He got his IPOD....
which now never seems to leave the ears of my pre-tween boy....
I don't have one yet, by the way...an IPOD that is....
as Jack would say...."I'm just saying"...
That's my new favorite southern expression my five year old uses constantly....
Like at his soccer game Saturday...
"Our goalie is not very good."...
"JACK! shhh-hh...That's not nice"
"I'm just saying"....
Yeah, manners we have none...
SO...I had the BEST weekend.
("I'm just saying")
I met Nisa!!!!! and....
She TOOK PHOTOS OF MY BOYS!!!!
Yes, I'm a teeny, tiny.....WHOLE lotta excited about that....
Even though, Jack was a bit whiney...(ok, sooo I didn't know he was sick)....and Jared was a bit serious. (but that's completely normal)
The report from Gabby is that "I'm going to die....they're SO GOOD"....
So I can hardly stand it.

I also got to spend the ENTIRE day shopping on Friday w/ Gabby, Jessica, and Nisa....
good stuff....I needed some girl time...
TONS of laughs...some money spent....sigh....I loved it.
Just the coolest chicks EVER. I'm so jealous Gabby gets to hang out w/ Jess whenever she wants.....and Nisa....well, Minneapolis is just TOO far away....
Stokepoo...("I'm just saying").
Hopefully Gab will send me some photos of the day soon. (subtle hints never hurt, eh? heehee)

Today has been a Monday...that's for sure.
Jack is home sick, bit of a fever, but nothing else really.
He's keeping up his strength w/ some cheetos, sprite and tv.
That's some good parenting for those of you taking notes.
Ok, off to pick up the Coley guy. xe