Tuesday, March 28, 2006

OOOOO-K.....

Let's lighten the mood a bit....
I'm working on it...
I am.

So....here's a glimpse into how it's been around the house lately....

Jared has informed me that laundry...is not an option.
hmm....
something about underwear...
and him needing it.
?
something about I'm suppose to "wash what is in the dirty pile"...
hmmm....
the expectations around this place haven't let up I tell you.

i however think that my subdued personality has been nice for somethings...
like say for instance...
the marathon recorder jam sessions that have been taking place in my home...
you heard that right...
the recorder.
merrily we row along, old mcdonald...
yeah....really, nothing like an eleven year old on the recorder to remind you how important a sense of humor really is.

speaking of sense of humor....
a story for you before i sign off...
because while most people have then occasional "jessica moment"...i have them daily.
SO....we're at the service in Racine....and afterwards they have a "reception" or something,
i don't really get it...because
a. you're not hungry, and
b. you don't really want to talk to a bunch of people you hardly know or remember.....
but it's nice i suppose....
so we're there, and i'm thinking i should go talk to Alex's coach again before he leaves,
to get contact information, etc...for the race...
he was standing next to a man and woman, but they weren't talking...
so I go over to him....
we start talking...
we realize we went to school together....
(cut me a little slack, there were like 500 in my class, and he was a year older or younger)
soo, he's saying
"you wouldn't remember me, i was skinny and dorky, and took some dumb classes"....
this is where the story picks up...
so in an effort to make him feel better (ok, and also because it's true)
I say.....
SO eloquently...
"OH, I took stupid classes too....like sports lit"
yep, that is what i said.
The woman pipes in (the one still standing there w/ her husband)
"Oh...that's what my husband teaches"
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?
So, now you realize....I'm completely embarrassed, and when this happens, instead of just letting it go....I have to try and make up for it by talking....in fact...i can't stop....
so...I continue....
thus...making it that much worse.....
"OH, WELL, I LOVED sports lit....it was the best class ever....I mean, why would you take smart classes like AP English, when you could take sports lit (yep, i said that...omg)....I loved writing papers about sports...it was the best"
DUH!
What the.....?!?!
Ok, so there you go.
even at a funeral....I can manage to make a complete ass out of myself.
It's a gift really.

Last, but not least...
I got this email last week....

"You have a choice Erika, and I'm sure you'll make the right one. Choose to remember the best of Alex, not the end. There was no happy ending, but she did have one hell of a plot, story-line and page-turning life. Just remember the good parts. I can't promise you your healing will go quick, but I can promise you that you will feel better....about yourself and about your memories of Alex. Your a very special person, and making yourself feel bad about Alex is not going to help anyone, including yourself. Instead, do a little more to make others feel better and you'll feel better about yourself. Tell them how much you care...."
(Thankyou Dan)

So, to everyone...thank you....Kirsten you are an angel.....Missy, Erin, April...miss Charmer....everyone that made cards for us, ...that emailed......just the words you have given me, they've helped so very much.
I've read and re-read them all.... my mantel is a very happy place right now....
I feel so blessed. xxxe

ps.
We sold our house.

pps.
If anyone knows anything about road races.....ANYTHING....please email me....
Gabby and I are working on it...and we don't want to miss anything important...
like today we realized we needed a timer...
the two of us w/ stop watches just won't cut it....;)
ahhh-yah.....
(i am not a runner folks....)

9 comments:

gabbyfek said...

i'm glad you left out the part of the story where i was standing by you but had to leave b/c i started laughing too hard....
love you.
so very much...
and still giggling over-- WAIT! i didn't get your time! go back....
thanks for making me smile.
xoxoox,
g

Kirsten said...

I really can't tell you how hard I laughed at that story...but I was talking to Nisa at the time and had to read it to her. although I'm not sure she could understand what I was saying --

and also -- you're welcome. I'm thinking of you two everyday. somehow all those good thoughts will make you stronger. that is my hope.

April said...

you are so very welcome...thank you for sharing your stories & friendships with each of us.
that email is very true and you should definitely heed that advice...but i know you will ;)

love you chicky....no more "word vomit" about sports lit, mmmmkay?

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Missy said...

oooh how I love you...
happy or sad, you are an amazing woman.

and... running?
what is this "running" you speak of?
I have no clue :) sorry sweets, I am no help!

Sarah said...

Laundry isn't optional?

CRAP.

Erin said...

omg erika,
i could totally hang out with you girl!
i do the same thing all the time.
just ask that sister of yours, she got a glimpse of it in vegas.
lol...
i'm so happy that you sold your house!
YES!!!!!!!!
now you can just sit back and enjoy the new one.
which we have yet to see pics of BTW!
you know i'm obsessed w/ looking in people's windows (in the non-freaky stalker like way).

Mara said...

a timer?
that's a bit over-rated. :)
road race?
as in running on the road?
i am so glad that you're smiling - at least a little - it's a good thing.
love ya.
XO.

Darcy said...

Oh my gosh, E, I knew we were meant to be friends. I could totally relate to your story. I takes a talented person to get your foot all the way up into your mouth. =)

You two are gunna be completely amazing at this race thing. and who cares about what time they make!! Wait, runners care, don't they? I'm sorry I'm not much help. =/

RACHEL =) said...

Okay, sorry, but I have to do it... ditto on the "open mouth-insert foot" thing, I do that all the time!!! But that was a good save, girlie!!!!

Loved making the cards for you guys - wish I could've been there to watch you guys open them (hey, I'm nosy, what can I say?!) But I bet it was emotional in a good way! So awesome for those girls to put that together for all of us who care about you two soooo very much!!! =)